This is the truth about me. My real feelings, and thoughts... don't scrutinize! i love that word... lol

Ever been called.....
Dumb?: yea
Retarded?: can I consider my sister?
Ugly?: yep
Hot?: yep… only by one person tho.
A waste of space?: yep
Useless?: yep

Smelly?: yep
A Slut?: 24/7

Smart?: yep… but only by the ‘rents
Quiet?: never
Boring?: once or twice
A Bitch?: no doubt
Rebel?: nope
Conceited?: yep
Currently
What are you wearing?: jeans, my gray army shirt, and James’ old hoodie
Who are you talking to?: no one
How is the weather?: freezing and cloudy
What are you listening to?: rammstein…
What/Who are you thinking about?: James… duh!
What are you eating/drinking?: nothing
What are you looking forward to?: Snowball
What are you dreading?: regents week
How are you feeling?: shitty
How is your hair?: down… annoying
What time is it?: 4:37 pm
What are you annoyed by?: my friends
When Was The Last Time You..
Burped?: like… 5 min ago
Went to the movies?: 2 weeks ago? Idk… w/ robin
Went out to eat?: Thursday

Worried?: 5 min ago
Got dumped?: idk a while ago..
Dumped someone?: idk a while ago…
Threw up?: voluntairly: 5 min ago involuntarily: the last time I was real upset.

Went skating?: never…

Went for a walk?: my b-day party last summer
Ate ice cream?: a few days ago
Got into a fight?: day before yesterday
Issues
Do you do drugs?: pot, yes
Do you have a mental disablity?: ppl tell me I do… idk tho
Are you on any medication for any type of disorder?: nope

Do you or have you ever had an eating disorder?: yes and yes
What kinds of illnesses run in your family?: need I list them off? That’s why I have no g-parents

Who was the last person you...
Talked to?: Jackie
Yelled at?: Jason
Kissed: James
Hugged?: James

Went out to eat with?: poppi, ma and pa
Flirted with?: James
Talked to on the phone?: kati
IMed?: Jackie
Recieved an IM from?: Jackie
E-Mail?: Alex, I think
Got flowers from?: James… 2 years ago
Danced with?: Dan.. or maybe Jackie… at Jackie’s b-day party
Fought with?: My mom
Worried about?: Me
Cried over?: James
Thought about?: James
Are you...
Understanding?: yea… I think so
Pretty?: idk… ppl tell me I am I don’t agree

Nice?: at times
A bitch?: if im pissy that day
Hard to get?: nope. Im a whore
Depressed?: hell yea
Hyper?: nope
Friendly?: yep
Hungry?: yep
Original?: idk
Shy?: nope
Emotional?: yep
Immature?: not really
Sad?: yep
Trusting?: ask my “friends”
Healthy?: nope
Sleepy?: yep
Lonely?: yep
Independent?: yep
Romantic?: sometimes… if I have a b/f.
Do you drink [alcohol]?: yep
Do you party a lot?: nope
How often do you use the word "like" in an average hour?: idk… can’t count.
Do you skip classes?: yep

How often?: every other day… as in: A-days
Do you steal?: nope
Do you wear inappropriate clothing?: nope
Do you drool over celebrities?: hell no
Do you watch a lot of TV?: not really
Do you ever watch the News?: nope
Do you read books often?: used 2
Do you spend most of your time with your friends?: nope
Do you smoke cigarettes?: yep
Do you hang out a lot in malls, or at Seven Elevens?: nope
Do you often find yourself with a crush on someone?: nope
Do you cuss a lot?: yep
Are you desperate to fit in?: nope
are you intelligent?: yep
Do you spend a lot of time on your appearence?: nope
Make-up?: nope
Low-cut tops?: nope
Do you flip your hair when you talk, even if you don't realize it?: nope
Giggle a lot?: nope
[In the last 24 hours, have you]
Cried: yep
Bought something: nope
Gotten sick: nope
Sang: yep… except it was basically screaming.
Eaten: nope
Been kissed: nope
Felt stupid: yep
Met someone new: nope
Moved on: nope
Had a serious talk: yep
Missed someone: yep
Hugged someone: yea… *sigh* James
Fought with your parents: yep
[Personal]
Who is your role model: math teacher from last year…
What are some of your pet peeves: ppl who apologize for something they never did
Have you ever liked someone you had no chance with: James
Have you ever cried over the opposite sex: James
Do you have a "type" of person you always go after: ass holes
Have you ever lied to your best friend(s): best friend? Haven’t had one in years.
Want someone you don't have right now: James
Ever liked your best girl friend: nope… once again… best friend?
Do you want to get married: to James… yea, anyone else, no.
Do you want kids: eventually
Do you believe you know the person whom you will marry at this point in time: yep
Are you happy with your life: nope
If you could change something in your life right now, what would it be: be w/ James
Pierced your nose or tongue? nope
Be serious or be funny? serious... maybe.
Do you have a crush? Nope… unless u consider love.
Who is it? no one… unless it’s love… then it’s James. 

 More basics

What is your name?: Veronica
Are you named after anyone?: Yes, Poppi… he wanted someone w/ his name
What's your screename?:  rocka813
Would you name a child of yours after you?: maybe
If you were born a member of the opposite sex what would your name be?: Ronald... not by choice.
If you could switch names with a friend who would it be?:  no one... i don't know anyone with the name Isabelle.
Are there any mispronounciations/typos that ppl do w/ your name constantly?: people always miss the “n” in my last name.
Would you drop your last name if you became famous?: I’d b called Nocka.. not!
Basics
Your gender:: Female
Straight/Gay/Bi:: bi
Single?: always
If not, do you want to be?: nope
Birthdate:: 8-13-89 

Your age::  15
Age you act:: idk… ppl j/ say older

Age you wish you were:: older
Your height:: 5’3
Eye color::  dk. brown
Happy with it?: nope… wish it was black
Hair color::  dk. brown
Happy with it?:  nope… wish it had red highlights
Lefty/righty/ambidextrous::  righty
Your living arrangement::  house
Your family::  2 sis… 1 niece…. 1 nephew
Have any pets?:  2 dogs.. 2 cats… R.I.P. Bob and Moe!
Whats your job?:  none
Piercings?:  2 in each ear
Tattoos?:  nope
Obsessions?:  James
Addictions?:  Cigarettes… compu…
Do you speak another language?:  spanish and Lakota… but not fluently.
Have a favorite quote?:  “you might be a redneck if…” lol… lake times…
Do you have a webpage?:  yea: broken62103.tripod.com
Deep Thoughts About Life and You in it
Do you live in the moment?:  yep
Do you consider yourself tolerant of others?: if it’s bullshit, nope.
Do you have any secrets?: yep… plenty
Do you hate yourself?:  yep
Do you like your handwriting?: nope
Do you have any bad habits?:  yep
What is the compliment you get from most people?: nice hair/ tits
If a movie was made about your life, what would it be called?: barely legal
What's your biggest fear?: losing James permanently
Can you sing?:  I used 2 think so…. Not so much anymore
Do you ever pretend to be someone else just to look cool?: oh yea… not!
Are you a loner?:  yep
What are your #1 priorities in life?: live till tomorrow… try 2 go 2 college
If you were another person, would you be friends with you?:  prolly not… I suck
Are you a daredevil?: when drunk, yea
Is there anything you fear or hate about yourself?: everything… I hate my being… I’m a whore.. and I don’t deserve anyone, ever.
Are you passive or aggressive?:  aggressive
Do you have a journal?: yep
What is your greatest strength and weakness?: weakness: James  strength: none
If you could change one thing about yourself, what would it be?: my past… I wouldnt’ve cheated on James.
Do you think you are emotionally strong?: hell no
Is there anything you regret doing/not doing in life?: doing: cheating on James… not doing: idk
Do you think life has been good so far?: not really
What is the most important lesson you've learned from life?: stop being a whore.
What do you like the most about your body?: my boobs, hair n eyes, if I do my make-up right.
And least?: fat
Do you think you are good looking?:  not really
Are you confident?: yep
What is the fictional character you are most like?: umm… no one
Are you perceived wrongly?: yep
Do You...
Smoke?:  yep
Do drugs?:  yep
Read the newspaper?:  nope
Pray?: at times
Go to church?:  nope
Talk to strangers who IM you?:  nope
Sleep with stuffed animals?:  yep… eeyore! I miss my snow leopard
Take walks in the rain?:  yep… if it’s warm out.
Talk to people even though you hate them?:  yep…

Drive?: nope… well… not leagally
Like to drive fast?: yep
Have You Ever...
Liked your voice?:  yep
Hurt yourself?: 24/7
Been out of the country?:  nope
Eaten something that made other people sick?:  nope
Been in love?: James
Done drugs?:  yep
Gone skinny dipping?:  yep… lake… woo!
Had a medical emergency?:  unless u consider spraining my ankle, no.
Had surgery?: nope
Ran away from home?: I wish
Played strip poker?: nope
Gotten beaten up?:  nope
Beaten someone up?:  kinda
Been picked on?: daily
Been on stage?: talent show 2004… I was horrible
Slept outdoors?: yep
Thought about suicide?: daily
Pulled an all nighter?:  yep
If yes, what is your record?: idk… all night
Gone one day without food?: yep
Talked on the phone all night?:  nope
Slept together with the opposite sex w/o actually having sex?: yep… it was like… 1 min tho… we didn’t want 2 get caught.
Slept all day?:  nope
Killed someone?:  I wish
Made out with a stranger?: nope
Had sex with a stranger?:  nope
Thought you're going crazy?: yep
Kissed the same sex?: yep
Done anything sexual with the same sex?: yep
Been betrayed?: plenty of times
Had a dream that came true?:  yep
Broken the law?:  nope… lol
Met a famous person?: nope
Have you ever killed an animal by accident?:  nope
On purpose?: yep… gun practice
Told a secret you swore you wouldn't tell?: nope
Stolen anything?: nope
Been on radio/tv?: nope… but my dad has… both!
Been in a mosh-pit?:  nope
Had a nervous breakdown?:  yep
Bungee jumped?: nope
Had a dream that kept coming back?:  yep
Beliefs
Belive in life on other planets?:  not in our solar system, but yea
Miracles?:  if love, yea
Astrology?: kinda
Magic?:  yep
God?:  and goddess
Satan?:  to a certain extent
Santa?:  nope
Ghosts?:  yep
Luck?:  kinda
Love at first sight?:  yep
Yin and yang (that good cant exist w/o bad)?:  yep
Witches?:  duh, I am one
Easter bunny?: nope

Believe its possible to remain faithful forever?:  yep
Believe theres a pot of gold at the end of a rainbow?:  since we can never fin the end of a rainbow… yea!
Do you wish on stars?:  yep
Deep Theological Questions
Do you believe in the traditional view of Heaven and Hell?:  nope
Do you think God has a gender?: yes… male… and goddess is a woman
Do you believe in organized religion?: to a certain extent
Where do you think we go when we die?:  into the ground
Friends
Do you have any gay/lesbian friends?:  yep
Who is your best friend?: don’t have 1
Who's the one person that knows most about you?: James
What's the best advice that anyone has ever given to you?: get over him… there’s more fish in the sea
Your favorite inside joke?: Yesterday....  haha!

Thing you're picked on most about?: stupididty
Who's your longest known friend?:  Melissa Manning... all my life
Newest?: David n chris lol
Shyest?:  no one
Funniest?: Melissa... she can b such a ditz

Sweetest?: James.. when it’s j/ us
Closest?: James

Weirdest?: Alex
Smartest?: Erin

Ditziest?: Melissa
Friends you miss being close to the most?: James
Last person you talked to online?: Chris
Who do you talk to most online?:  Alex
Who are you on the phone with most?: recently.. alex.
Who do you trust most?: Alex

Who listens to your problems?: Chris
Who do you fight most with?: me
Who's the nicest?: idk..  Chris and Alex r both pretty nice..

Who's the most outgoing?:  no one
Who's the best singer?:  James
Who's on your shit-list?:  Rob Marks

Have you ever thought of having sex with a friend?: yea buddy! well... only the guys I like...

Who's your second family?:  used 2 b James n his ma… now…. No one
Do you always feel understood?: If im talking 2 Alex, yea.
Who's the loudest friend?:  idk
Do you trust others easily?:  WAY TOO EASILY
Who's house were you last at?:  Kati’s
Name one person who's arms you feel safe in:: James and mb alex... but idk.. i know i could b... but idk if I ever have been in his arms...
Do your friends know you?: not really…. No one does… James used 2…
Friend that lives farthest away:: Frank… or maybe Chris

Love and All That
Do you consider love a mistake?:  at times…
What do you find romantic?:  a rose… a soft kiss on the lips… sitting in each others arms… j/ watching Hannibal or any of the other movies I saw on the couch w/ him…
Turn-on?: kisses
Turn-off?: cumming in the pants… it’s j/ funny.
First kiss?:  Travis Green
If someone u had no interest in had interest in dating u how would u feel?:  idk... no one ever has interest in dating me.
Do you prefer knowing someone before dating them or going out w/ them?: yea
Have u ever wished it was more socially acceptable 4 a girl 2 ask a guy out:  yea
Have you ever been romantically attracted to someone physically unattractive?: Sky. yea
Do you think the opposite sex finds you good looking?: idk. Prolly not
What is best about the opposite sex?:  the comfort they can bring.
What is the worst thing about the opposite sex?:  having to teach then everything…. And them never listening… or learning.
What's the last present someone gave you?: a $25 gift cert. for a books/ music store…

Are you in love?: Yea
Do you consider your significant other hot?: significant other? lol… me?
Who Was the Last Person...
That haunted you?:  me? lol
You wanted to kill?:  Josh
That you laughed at?:  Alex
That laughed at you?:  Alex
That turned you on?: James
You went shopping with?: My dad and Kati
That broke your heart?: James… always James.
To disappoint you?:  all of the people I used 2 consider “friends”
To ask you out?:  Mike Stone
To make you cry?:  James
To brighten up your day?: Alex
That you thought about?:  James
You saw a movie with?: Robin
You talked to on the phone?: My sister, Kati
You talked to through IM/ICQ?: Chris
You saw?:  Kati
You lost?:  My grandmother…. Last feb.
Right This Moment...
Are you going out?:  nope
Will it be with your significant other?:  nope
Or some random person?: nope
What are you wearing right now?: jeans, my gray army shirt, and James’ old hoodie

Body part you're touching right now::  nose
What are you worried about right now?:  being  treated like crap
What book are you reading?:  none
What's on your mousepad?:  a ken shrader thing…
Use 5 words to describe how you're feeling::  shitty, depressed… lonely… need I go on?
Are you bored?: yep
Are you tired?:  yep
Are you talking to anyone online?:  nope
Are you talking to anyone on the phone?:  nope
Are you lonely or content?: lonely
Are you listening to music?:  nope.