poems

poems and songs

poems

I haven't written all of these... just most of them.

Drawing near the end

I can feel it get closer

This feels so right

Who care's if it's wrong

maybe he loves me

Maybe he's telling me the truth

He told me he love me

He looked in my eyes

Why do I need proof?

Now he's in me

And it feels wrong

There is something wrong here

But I don't know what it is

Maybe it's cuz I'm 14

Maybe it's cuz he's 17

Maybe it's cuz I love someone else

But why would that matter?

People think I'm young

People think I'm easy

I'm not easy to be taken advantage of

People have taken advantage of me

They thought I was easy

But I'm not. I just don't know better

If someone says they love me

I'm theirs

If anyone acts as if they care,

I'm fucked

I hate being like this

But i don't care anymore

I don't think anymore.

I just do things.

there will never come a day

you will ever hear me say

that i want

or need

to be without you

I awnt to give my all

baby just hold me

simply controll me

beacause your arms

they keep away the lonliness

when i look into your eyes

then i realize

all i need is you in my life

cuz i never felt this way about loving

never felt so in love

baby

never felt this way about loving

and it feels so good

You have to be kidding

I don't want you now

I wish I could love you

But I don't know how.

I thought you loved me so

So I tried to let you go

But you never came back

And that's a fact.

So now were apart

And you claim I still own your heart

But If I do

Why don't I love you too?

Always behind you

is where I would look

A second glance I never took

Always searching for things

That were never there

until in your eyes I began to stare

In your eyes I could truly know

I was looking into your very soul

Revealed to me was a love so true

All that I've been looking for,

Was someone like you.

I should be heppy

I'm told i deserve to be

But there's something missing

I can't figure it out

I'm just Unhappy

I have no friends

I think people care

But they just turn around and hurt me

What did I do wrong?

And why can't anyone be there?

So I have a boyfriend now

We've been going out for a week

I'm already falling in love with him

But he don't love me.

He never did

But that was what he was telling me

So now I've screwed up

And there's no way to change what I did

But I feel so bad inside

And would do anything to make it up

But it's too late

So our relationship is on the rocks

And there is no way to fix it

Will we end up breaking up?

Only time will tell

So I have to sit and wait

And hope I will find love again.

I feel like crap

sitting here

waiting for my life to end

why do i have to wait?

why don't I finish myself off?

oh yea, you

I won't die beacuse I'm scared

I don't want you to die

But i don't want to bring you down

How the hell am I supposed 2 do this?

I think I love you

That don't make it true

I tell myself I love you

But how can I?

I love someone else.

I didn't want to tell you

Thinking I'd hurt you

But my love for you is gone

It was never truly here

I just pretended to not hurt you

But baby, what was I to do?

Here you come all loving,

and here I am so sad

I can't show you how I truly feel

Because I just hurt so bad

I want to know you love me

But for some reason there's no trust

So how can i say i truly love you

if our realtionship is based on lust?

I cut myself today

The pain felt so nice

Maybe I will die today

It'll just be another human sacrifice

How am i to knowI'm not already dead?

How am I to know this is really me, and not someone else, instead?

When I was young I could be happy, free

But now that I've grown up, i can barely be me.

I can't deal with this pain anymore

There's no fighting left inside of me

How can I continue life like this

With no one here beside me?

I wish you loved me again

I wish you were with me

I remember those days when I was happy

But I don't remember so much more

I don't remember how to smile

I don't remember how to laugh

All I do now is cry

And I do that in all my free time

It's been many months since we broke up

And I still sit here

Living in the past

Wishing you were here

I still think about you all the time

But there's nothing for me to hold onto.

I gave you my life,

I gave you my world

I regret ever losing you

I regret ever hurting you

But how could I have known better?

I hadn't ever loved until you

Now here's my life

Coming close to an end

But before I go,

I want to try once more to make amends.

James I love you, I always will

I promised you my life but that's done and killed

I promised you, untill deat do us part

Well, since we've broken up, I've basically been dead,

I've had no heart.

David I fucked you,

that's all we ever did

Now my life is over

That was all I had to give

So i'm sorry and goodbye

Don't think it's your fault

All you ever did was care

All I ever did was bitch

so thank you for caring

But you're not my love

I'm sorry you had to find out this was

But how else could i have told you?

I told you Id never say goodbye. Now Im slipping on the tears you made me cry

In my nothing, you meant everything, everything to me..

I descend from grace

in arms of undertow

I will take my place

in the great below

Lost Without You

I'm so lost here without you in my life.

I feel like there is no reason to live.

I guess that love is not meant for my type.

I lost you, now what do I have to give?

You said that without me there's only darkness,

But Im here without you, and you're happy.

You claimed you loved me; I know you're heartless.

You wrote me notes that seemed true and sappy.

The love you had for me was simply fake.

Without a second thought you broke my heart.

I thought you loved me but it was just hate.

Now my life has simply fallen apart.

You tell me you love me but we're just friends.

You said we'd be together til the end.

by me.